One of my New Year’s Resolutions was to join the Five Minute Fridays over at Lisa Jo Baker’s site. I enjoy her writing, and also just really appreciate her ability to continue writing. It seems so easy…but I know it isn’t. Today’s prompt is “Visit.”
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The wait is over. And no call that you didn’t make it onto the plane. Or not purchase your ticket. I hate that moment, when I really thought you were coming, that you were hours away, and then I learn you decided not to come. It’s not a let down, because I always expect it, but I love seeing you. I love having you nearby. I wish I could get excited beforehand, but…
You were unable to be my anchor. It forced me to learn to lean into the wind, to tack and release sail as necessary. Skills which make me who I am and keep me strong, but fail me in times of true turmoil, unable to keep track of the prevailing winds, to keep up with shifting currents.
Yet when you’re around I feel buffeted, shielded in love. For my own kids I want to balance that powerful protection, but also give them some base, some guide. A rock that will keep them from steering too far ashore when they are unable or unwilling.
Until your plane has landed, and we are in the car, I never mention to them, “Grandma’s coming!”